Just over a month ago, I decided to “start running again”. It has given me a lot of time to think, and a lot of time to pray. Every single time I run, my thoughts automatically turn to our adoption. Through it, God has taught me so much about myself and about this journey we are on.
“I lengthen my stride, and run straight towards the goal to win the prize that God’s heavenly call offers in Christ Jesus” Philippians 3:14
Some days, I step out the door excited and ready to run. It feels easy and rewarding. Other days, I have to make myself put on my running shoes and push myself out the door fighting the thoughts of my flesh the whole way. “Just one foot in front of the other. It’s really hot, and that bridge looks WAY higher than the last time I ran it.”
I have to keep myself from looking too far ahead or I feel completely overwhelmed by how much farther there is to go. I have to stay focused ONLY on the next step. Even though running up the bridge is really tough at times, I remind myself, “if I can just make it to the top, all the hard work and endurance will pay off and I will soon be running down the other side.”
All this speaks to me about our adoption journey. We are running this race everyday, and it has certainly been a race testing our endurance.
” Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith…” Hebrews 12:1-2 We have to continue to run with endurance, or we will never reach the goal and the prize.
Endurance is defined as – “the power of enduring an unpleasant or difficult process or situation without giving way.” This perfectly defines this whole adoption journey.
We can only do this by continuing to look to Jesus and depending on him. One step at a time.
There has been many times while during one of my runs that the words of a song starts playing on my iPod that I need to hear in that exact moment… here are two examples of lyrics that spoke to me when I felt as though I couldn’t run one more step:
“Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they will walk and not grow weary, they will run and not grow faint” – Isaiah 40:31
“When all you gotta keep is strong, move along, move along like I know you do . Even when your hope is gone, move along, move along, just to make it through.” – The all-american rejects