About once a month China releases a “shared list”. A secured listing of adoptable children with “special needs” ranging from really minor to more major needs. Adoption agencies are on standby late that night (since it is released in the morning China time and they are 12 hours “ahead” of us) so that as soon as the list is released they can view and lock files for review for a family they feel might be a perfect match to a specific child. Its been over a month since the last list was released, and I was beginning to wonder why we hadn’t heard anything. Now that we are logged in, we could possibly be matched and I spend my time trying not to do too much “wondering”. Then on Friday I saw this in my inbox.
I was flooded with all sorts of emotion. I can only compare it to the same sort of feelings as when I took a pregnancy test to find out if I was expecting. I hoped I would be, and there was a possibility…. It would be so exciting!!! But wait… are we really ready?? Yes. We are! I think… I mean, I want to be, ugh, I can hardly wait another minute…. there are so many factors that come into play, so many unknowns. It all comes down to one thing, the Lords timing and his perfect will. Is it possible that THIS would be the month we will we see a “plus” sign??
It IS a possibility, and as with a pregnancy test, we will just have to wait and see. (a little longer than say, 5 minutes, but at least there is no pee involved) 😉 If its not this month then we will just wait and hope that next month will be the month.
Please keep us in your prayers this week, as it is very possible we could be receiving a referral for our little one. Pray for peace and rest in knowing that he is in control, and wisdom and guidance if we are indeed matched. I will update either way at the bottom of this post by the end of the week.
PSALM 27:14- “Wait with hope for the Lord. Be strong, and let your heart be courageous. Yes, wait with hope for the Lord.”
***update- 10/26/2013 – We were not matched on this months list. So, we wait with hope for the Lord.