I had “one of those” dreams last night. For me, they are few and far between, but they are distinct. These dreams feel so real. I feel as though I am actually physically wherever they take place, experiencing whatever it is that is happening. These dreams, unlike so many of the others, are unforgettable.
Many times when I have these types of dreams, I feel like possibly the Lord is speaking something. God used dreams in the Bible SO many times to communicate with his people, and I believe He still does this today. I am not saying every dream is from the Lord…. some of my dreams can be a bunch of crazy non sense that make me wake up and think, “what in the world?!”… but a few times in my life, I wake up and feel like I dreamt something significant.
Like I said, last night, I had one of those dreams. It was about our youngest daughter , who lives in China.
It was short and sweet, and made my heart feel so full.
Let me start out by reminding you, as I mentioned in the last blog post, the medical charts and information we received with our referral of our daughter, were pretty vague, which is completely normal with chinese adoption. We wont be completely sure what exactly is, or was going on with her left leg until she is in our care. The choppy information we were given stated she could sit for short periods of time, but that she was doing so unstably. It also stated that she was possibly crawling some. We knew by the information given that she was not walking or standing. This is normal for a 13 month old in an orphanage. Especially one who started life with some sort physical delay.
Anyway, in my dream, I was in her orphanage in China. I wasn’t there to get her though, it wasn’t time, but I was meeting her for the first time. I was in a room where, to my left was a very plain looking white wooden crib, and to my right an open door way with a maroon door frame. ( I want to include the tiny details so that I wont forget, not because I believe they hold any significance)
Im there for just a few seconds when a chinese lady, I assumed to be an orphanage “nanny”, enters the room holding the hand of our daughter. She is so tiny and she is WALKING with the help of the nanny, although very wobbly. The nanny takes only a few steps into the room and lets go of our daughters hand directing her towards the crib before she turns to leave. Our daughter takes the few more wobbly step it takes to reach the crib, and grabs onto the white wooden slats for support.
I walk over and kneel down on one knee to her side. “Hhhhiiiiii” I say, in the same kind of “in awe” voice I used when meeting my two other daughters just after giving birth to them. She turns and smiles at me. I touch my hand to my chest, and say “Mama” to introduce myself. (This word is pronounced the same in Chinese and English.) She repeats “Mama”. Aaaawweeeee!!!!!
I pull her in for a close hug, kiss her little closed lips (prob the first time she’s ever been kissed) and let go. She grabs onto the crib and then leans back in to kiss me again, this time with that wide open mouth kiss that babies do before they know how to give kisses =) I kiss her again, and my heart melts. It’s now time for her to go back with her “Nanny” into the other room, but I watch her from afar dancing to a song with the older kids, and then I wake up.
sigh. it was just a dream.
I roll over and told Caleb, “I just had the best dream about Reese.” (Yes, thats what we are naming her, more on that in a minute*)
Later in the day, Caleb and I met his mom at a store with the girls and I told her about the dream. She teared up. Minutes later Caleb and I walk into the next store and he says, “we just got an email with updated information on Reese.” We stopped just steps into the store, totally blocking the doorway to read the email.
The email was in response to the 5 questions we were allowed to submit after consulting with our pediatrician. We were told we may, or may not get an answer to these submitted questions, so I was surprised to receive them at all.
Here’s what the email told us:
“She has eye contact with those who speak to her”
“She can sit up and crawl on her own. She can stand up with support and walk some steps. She is able to grab things She even throws them away for fun. =) She is not able to speak of meaningful words. (LOL, ok) She loves to play with other kids. Basically she is open minded.” (Remember this has been translated from Chinese to english so the translation is always choppy)
“She now does not need any treatment. She only needs regular checks” – PRAISE THE LORD!!!
Caleb and I were so giddy with happiness we couldn’t even concentrate on shopping.
I looked at him and said, “GOD IS SO GOOD.”
I dreamt last night that our baby girl was walking wobbly with help, when for all we knew she couldn’t even sit stably. Today, we receive information that she is doing exactly that. Walking wobbly with help!!!!! Undeniably, God still uses dreams to speak to people. He is so good. He gave me that dream as just another confirmation that he is walking with us through this journey, and so that even if just for a moment, I could feel connected to our daughter who lives half way around the world.
He is so so good…
In other amazing news, we recieved a donation this week of $1,000!!!!!!! $6,000 to go!!!!
This little sentence was definitely one of my favorite part of the email update we received:
MATCHED WITH GRESSMAN! AAAAHHHHHHHH =)
*We decided since Riley and Rowan have the same initials, we couldn’t leave out our youngest daughter, so her name will be Reese Jia Kinley =)